Bookends

This past Friday, at my Kundalini Yoga class (which I’ve been enjoying, embracing, and benefiting from two mornings a week for the past six months or more), our final meditation focused on letting go of a specific fear; identifying something holding me back.  So I created a simple mantra, focusing on letting go of my fears of not having enough $$$, moving from fear to faith, manifesting through silence and serenity, turning the negative of fear to a positive, affirming, abundant place. 

So, whenever a thought about losing a client (clients come and go in my business) threatens to turn fearful, I resolve to simply say “The space will be filled, embrace the change.” I LOVE my Kundalini practice; such a wonderful way to connect with Spirit; to get out of my mind and into my heart and soul.

That night I attended Shabbos services, dancing, singing, praying, evoking the presence of Hashem, of Spirit, with my mystical Judaic sisters and brothers.  Know what?  Rabbi Marc channeled the same message as he spoke about change: Change can seem full of promise yet hold both known and unknown threats; witness the recent events of the Middle East and Japan.  Life certainly has its chaotic moments. 

Partner change with silence, with serenity, and you will find your way to grace, Rabbi Marc said. Change, while so potentially fearful and fraught with peril, can be welcomed if we but find the strength within.  Through our connection to Spirit, in prayer and in silence, we emerge into grace.  We cannot be buffeted by change when we find ourselves a state of grace.

Sooooooo, what happened while I was singing and dancing?  A client, who had been seeing me regularly and often (and very generously compensating me) since the first of the year, sent me a text canceling all future sessions.  I discovered this when I got around to checking my not-so-smart phone after services.  Instead of bemoaning my fate, however, I laughed (truly), moved into silence, and reminded myself that “the space will be filled; embrace the change.”

On Saturday and Sunday, I wound up treating two previously unscheduled young people (a 12-year-old and a 5-yr-old) in place of the one who abruptly bailed. This morning, two new people at hot yoga asked for my card. The space is already being filled. 

Sat Nam